my 21st year of being a human being is coming to a close and i’d like to look back and talk about some things.
i spent most of my 21st birthday with zak on the couch in our old apartment. we watched tv mostly. a movie maybe. we went to the DMV where i posed for a photo that would be placed on a landscape ID. he took me to dinner where i ordered a fruity alcoholic beverage and was not carded.
in september, zak and i went to our first Royals game where i ate 2 hot dogs, nachos, and cotton candy. we were on the kiss came and we were both secretly ecstatic about it. we lost, and i didn’t feel good later because i ate 2 hotdogs, nachos, and cotton candy.
in October, zak and i moved from our first apartment, to our second. i had decided i needed a pool. i’ve yet to use the pool. my new priorities are washer and dryer hook-ups. i also got my certification in custom framing. it was awesome at the time.
in november, my parents came and my mom cooked zak and i thanksgiving dinner. i started having blurry vision around this time, and had my first MRI.
in december, zak’s grandmother, Velma, passed away. i only knew her for 6 years, but i think of her often. i miss that woman very much.
zak and i celebrated christmas at his mothers house, and on new years eve, (our 6 years) zak asked me to marry him. December was its own little roller coaster.
in January, Callie and i celebrated 5 years of friendship. not physically, but in our hearts.
in February, i was diagnosed with MS, and then gained like 15 lbs from taking steroids for 3 weeks. i was also given full-time at work. I’m basically made of money now. and fat.
in march, zak turned 23. i became an expert on changing a tire, and jumping a car. i started my copaxone injections. AND discovered dunkin’ donuts pistachio iced coffee AND my life will never be the same. oh, and we also saw gary clark jr. and he was great.
in april, i said yes to the dress. aaaaafter visiting a davids bridal and questioning why we even bothered looking anywhere else because davids bridal is probably the worst place I’ve ever been.
in may, i celebrated working at hobby lobby for 3 years. which, i don’t know.. shouldn’t be celebrated, probably.
and here we are. its june. this month i’ve mostly been tired.
i’m tired of injecting a drug into my body 3 times a week.
which maybe sounds as awful as it is. but to expand on the issue, its hard to hurt yourself 3 times a week when you’re not fully sure that it is helping you.
(i actually had a copaxone nurse comes over last night for my 3 month check up. she was able to give me some reassurance on the fact that this drug really does help me. i really needed that.)
i’m tired of going to work everyday and trying not to quit.
which doesn’t sound any different than any other person in the world, but i really hate being there sometimes.
at the beginning of the month, one of my favorite people to work with put in his two weeks. and up until that point i think i felt like at least i had someone there with me to keep me sane in this cluster fuck frame shop, but now i was in it alone, and i didn’t think i was going to be able to do it with just me, so i’ve been contemplating quitting for awhile.
long story short, we are a VERY busy frame shop, where we are barely finishing work on time, with already not enough framers, and now we are down one, and its just not fucking right.
on top of all of that, zak got a stomach virus, which i then got, and we had to buy a new trashcan.
other things in june include:
my dad having a total knee replacement.
we now have two beds in our apartment.
we went to our second royals game and it was so hot holy shit. (this time i got 2 hotdogs, frozen lemonade, and a foam finger.)
i cried at work.
and i watched the new season of OITNB.
on a side note, zak and i get a lot of free stuff.
we go to this wendy’s and sometimes their just like, “would you like a free frosty while you wait?” yes.
once at minsky’s pizza, they messed up our pizza so they gave us the messed up one for free and then made us a whole new one.
the company i get my medicine through are always sending me free things like, yoga dvd, ice packs, bags, water bottles, alcohol wipes, travel bags..
the other day the place i bought my wedding dress called and was like, “hey, you didn’t get a shirt, what size are you?” and sent me a shirt. (which btw, if you are looking for an amazing bridal experience, i HIGHLY recommend Ivory & Lace in Warrensburg, MO. LINK HERE. it was a great experience and Rachel is so kind and helpful!)
once i got free doughnut holes at dunkin’ because i had a long wait.
and once i got a free taco at taco bell because i had a long wait.
anyway, i hope 22 is awesome. i hope i can find something to be passionate about. i hope that i can stick to a healthier diet. i hope the rest of my wedding planning goes well. i hope i can like my job again.